February 2012
18 posts
kangen
My only problem now : wanting nothing but to hold that person in my arms and knowing that I can’t because of this fucking distance. To meet you there, I need time, both of us need time. Yea, Even miracles take a little time.
where art thou?
I am looking for you in this fucking social network
I am looking for your name in this fucking cellphone’s screen
the worst part of these things is my words —that were spitting out from my mouth last time.
Yea, this is my bad again, for several times : treating you like you are the source of faults, treating you like you are the bad one.
In fact, it is not. In fact, you are not, dear..
It is me. It is me. It is me..
It is like.. a cycle, right, hon?
I talk too much (again), then I apologize it (again).
and now I remember that you ever once promised me that you wont give up no matter how hopeless the situation is..
I miss the talks we used to have, I miss the voice I used to hear. I miss hearing your crazy but cool stories and above all these, I.. umm„,
My dear, I will stop using this foreign language..
‘Aku kangen.’
Men.
So these guys keep telling me it’s impossible to understand what it is inside women’s minds. Dear boys, I don’t get you either.
All the more, I don’t understand your so-called rationality. You might want to brag about you being logical, but it honestly baffles me how “stupid” some of you actually are. And I’m not saying this out of old sentiments and whatnot.
If you’re a man, then man up for God’s sake. What’s the point of being logical when it all keeps coming down to doing nothing and getting nothing for that matter? If they don’t serve you well, don’t you know how to toss your reasoned notions away?
-GM.
semanis ini
Jadi kemarin adalah tanggal 14 Februari, tanggal yang disepakati hampir oleh seisi dunia sebagai Hari Valentine. Hari Valentine itu apa ya? Google aja deh, lebih lengkap tuh kayaknya.
Buat saya, hari Valentine sama biasanya dan sama normalnya seperti hari-hari biasa, punya pacar atau tidak punya pacar, sama saja : Most of know yesterday was valentines day. Well, for me, it’s just another Tuesday.
Anehnya, justru di hari yang saya anggap biasa, si mas berubah jadi lumayan manis. Pas lagi chat pagi, dia ngucapin Happy Valentine, pas lagi chat sore —saat saya sedang iseng bilang : Aku mau cokelat, bunga, boneka, dll. Sakty cuma bales : Aku kasih doa aja ya. Dan kemudian dia mengirimkan link video gitu. Pas chat malam, saat saya sudah ketiduran, dia kirim message lagi di inbox facebook : Udah tidur ya? Goodnight Ana, Happy Valentine ya :)
See? Itu aneh sekali. Ya, hebat.. virus merah jambu itu bisa menembus mas Sakty.. Saya ga peduli sama hari Valentine, tapi kalau saat itu adalah saat dimana Sakty bisa jadi semanis cokelat-cokelat yang dipita-pitain, I enjoy it, then :)
dan oh ya, pagi ini, saya bales message Sakty yang semalem belum sempat terbalas : Aku ketiduran. Why celebrate Valentine’s day when I love you everyday? :*
“Some people need to learn that some pains don’t heal easily, even with time…
It is easy for some people to tell someone to let go the pain, but how can you let go things that are embodied? How can you not feel the sores that continue to self refresh by the slightest stimulation? And how can anyone have the nerves to ask the person one has hurt badly to conspire against herself?” —Aquarini Prabasmoro
It is easy for some people to tell someone to let go the pain, but how can you let go things that are embodied? How can you not feel the sores that continue to self refresh by the slightest stimulation? And how can anyone have the nerves to ask the person one has hurt badly to conspire against herself?” —Aquarini Prabasmoro
Yes, I am.
“I want to wake up next to you, eat breakfast with you, get changed with you, play computer games with you, watch movies with you in bed, hold your hand and watch TV, send you cute texts, buy you gifts, take a nap together, wear your comfy hoody when I’m cold, look into your eyes, be with you at sunrise and sunset, cook for you, walk in the rain with you, fall asleep whilst on the phone to you, snuggle in bed, mess up your hair, kiss you goodnight.”
too much pretensions? Yes, I am.
do I ever, S?
definisi ‘bahagia’ menurut kamu apa ya?
mungkin saat kamu menghabiskan banyak waktu duduk di depan laptopmu untuk main game online berjam-jam, atau saat kamu berkumpul dengan teman-teman semasa SMA mu, atau mungkin saat kamu dengan afif atau sandy yang mengelilingi setiap sudut kota Bandung untuk sekadar mencari makanan yang paling memuaskan menurut kalian, atau mungkin saat ibu dan adik-adikmu datang ke Bandung, atau mungkin (seperti yang terjadi semalam) saat kamu ditelepon ibu berlama-lama hanya untuk sekadar berbagi cerita.. atau mungkin yang lain yang aku tidak tahu..
yang aku tidak tahu adalah ; apakah nama ku termasuk dalam list mu, untuk hal-hal yang kamu ‘gunakan’ untuk mendefinisikan ‘bahagia’ ? haha
definisi ‘bahagia’ menurut aku?
melihat senyum 5 orang yang paling aku sayang (bapak, ibu, nurul, cholid dan kamu) dan aku tahu bahwa penyebab senyum itu adalah aku.
…
do I ever fuck your mind like you always successfully fuck my mind almost all the time, my ‘S’ ?
